waw maybe #2

[bhappy2]

Updating:

Nothing new really, W is working a lot b/c this is her busy season with the cold weather. She has been ok to be around although I have notice she is not as friendly some days. She will do things as a family and I am ok with that right now.

D18 told me she is getting a tattoo, she knew I would not like it but she wanted to tell so as not to just shock me with the news. I make a joke that she can get one when the dog gets one, W immediately states "You can't tell her what to do". I respond very calmly and say "The jokes are easier if I don't have to explain them", she then completely backs off as D18 starts laughing. It was not meant to disrespect her but I view this as her trying to disrespect me as a man.

I then say that I was thinking of getting a tattoo as well and D18 asks what I would want to get and I said a tattoo of family on my wrist. W again tries to dis me by saying thats "Girly" I said getting family is girly,? and she said no where you want it is. I said your brother has one there and my nephew too. Why do they want to argue she knows I will not take the bait.

We have a huge family party coming up and W has still not told anyone in the house the details. It's a black tie affair and its been planned for over a year. Our whole family is looking forward to this.

I still just don't understand if you want a D why do you not file? Cannot make logic out of illogical persons.

My running and workout efforts have increased tremendously and I am really feeling good. Without working out I would be a basket case. I also feel that 7 months gone by has made me realize that I can do this and its actually not that hard.

I have pre-planned everything with the attorney should she file. It will not be easy but I believe doing this will help me deal better with it.