For folks joining in on the action at this point, quick summary:
W walked out in typical BD fashion and then mixed messages for a few months which gave me difficulties in doing DBing. Had a big chat 3 months ago and she said that separation was permanent. Since then I've been basically NC/Dark aside from being proactive on kid communications. No pursuing or asking questions. Took some time to get my head straight but then completely focused on myself and things are getting better.
Nothing eventful has happened in the last little while. I am putting myself back into my work more and getting that going. Also, been consistent with my health goals since beginning of January and will be keeping it up.
I have lots of new things that I want to get into this year, but I am slowly phasing things in and taking time. I have the tendency to be impulsive and when something excites me, I just want to rush into right away. But, I am making sure that my primary goals and new habits get really settled in and I adapt to the new lifestyle before I add more things in.
Stuff that I want to incorporate this year:
1. Woodworking skills (we have a community woodworking shop where they offer courses and little projects. Great way to learn and meet people as well)
2. Learn Spanish Guitar (will have to teach myself, but it will be fun)
3. Join Toastmasters or some public speaking and communications club (I used to be a very confident and engaging speaker many years ago; my self-esteem took a beating and so I have kinda lost that confidence and I want to gain in back)
I am having some trouble sleeping and thoughts do creep up all the time, but I am keeping busy and so that has helped.
