To be honest, I don't know what you want. It's going to be hard to help you create a sentence, because, I can't tell if you are still trying to fight for your M or you are letting it all go. You are not DBing. You are just going with the flow. You haven't use much of the advice the board has given you.
You never update on what you GAL, 180s, and validations were. Every post you write, it's about what your W has said or what she is going to do in the Future.
What do you want to do? You W is in love with OM. Let her go. If you want a chance to get her back. Let her go!!!!!
M:37 W:37 T:11 M:10 S17, S13, S10, S4 BD:06/28/17 OM confirmed 07/20/17 Recon the M 10/29/17 Working hard:2gether
Onward and forward
This process is not a sprint it's a marathon! Patience, Patience, Patience.