Thanks guys. The thing is, I KNOW all of this. I mean, I know it. I see it. I see what she's doing I know what she's doing and I know that she is completely lost in her fog. I know the plays and the responses. I know the fog will probably lift one day.
I know it's early on. I just can't seem to make these feelings go away. It's killing me little by little, day by day.
I have my tactics down pretty well. I have my head on straight. I have all of you. I have the tools.
My heart is just making this difficult.
Save yourself. Nobody is coming! BD:11/2017 Filed:12/2017 Final: 2/2018
‘Crawl in a hole’? I get it. But ‘SHE’ is making you feel that.
I have a friend from Texas. A pal from university in England. He would use the phrase ‘pussy whipped’ (his Texan phrase not mine). Does she control you?
People only treat you how you allow them to treat you.
Boundaries son. Boundaries.
I keep vigil for you but help yourself. Man up as much as you can my friend. No excuses.
Surfer.
M46/W40/D8/S6/T20/M12/Separated 6/2016,W takes kids Issues2009 Wpartying w/g.f's2013on EA2013PAdeniedWleavesMBR ImeetAP/EAhalts VariousBDDates MFCourse WSpew EAresumes I halt Wrages DBIng4/2016
I'm just having a weak day. I don't know why. It doesn't make any sense. However, I noticed that when I'm going through this I come here to get it out and obviously I get a dose of of reality from you all too.
I can't be this way at home in front of kids or WW. For them I am strong.
I'm not really this weak. I need to stop.
Save yourself. Nobody is coming! BD:11/2017 Filed:12/2017 Final: 2/2018
I cannot imagine what it would be like to deal with a WAW on a regular basis. In my situation we've had 6 months of NC and thus I have been able to GAL a lot easier. I think if you are facing her regularly she will suck the life out of you because you're constantly confronted with her anger and clouded mind.
Truthbuster.
Married 4.5, Together 6 M: 36, W: 33, no kids Separation date: 7/8/2017 Bomb dropped: 8/18/2017 Last communication: 1/8/2018 - now nothing OM confirmed - now ended (?)
My confidence was just shot to hell this morning. I seem to do better when I am in the moment and I'm concentrating all of my focus on DB or some other important task.
It's infuriating to know that I don't have control over my mood swings. I'm trying to accept the feelings with open arms but today it was just ever so slightly different. This wave had an edge to it I haven't encountered yet. Just enough to put me over the edge.
I'm sorry guys.
Save yourself. Nobody is coming! BD:11/2017 Filed:12/2017 Final: 2/2018
No need to apologize. These things have happened to all of us. The pain is so intense, and you want it to go away. It will in time. Give yourself that time and don't beat yourself up for being on the roller coaster.
Me-47,XW-43 S13,S16 M:18 BD:4-23-17 W filed:7-17-17 (5 months of in-house separation hell) W moved out:1-6-18 D granted:2-15-18 Decree signed:3-29-18
My confidence was just shot to hell this morning. I seem to do better when I am in the moment and I'm concentrating all of my focus on DB or some other important task.
Or you could go work out, nothing better than blowing off this energy working out. Live your life!
M:52 W:49 D:26 S:24 S:23 D:20 ILYBNILWY 5/28/17 Still living together W filed 1/5/18 W moved out 8/24/18 D final 9/18/20
