Ok, I think I understand what you are saying more clearly. basically, the way I read it is You want a M of Lifetime Commitment and the M as known in today's society is more of a "For Now" commitment, until you exhibit a deal breaker and they exit rather than working on the issue(s).
Just wanted to stop by before I head out to fly back to FL today to attend my D hearing tomorrow morning. I will be flying back home tomorrow night, decided not to incorporate a family/friend visit into the same trip as the D.
Right now I'm in a good state of mind, I had a couple of rough days around New Years (after snooping), but came out of that hole after a few days and have had a positive mental attitude since. Hopefully I can keep that attitude throughout the hearing, focus on the fact that I want the divorce today, and not get lost in what I wanted over a year ago.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized