Well he made some comments again about moving on with the process, so I told him I have an attorney that specializes in collaborative divorce and that I would like to do that. I told him that I had thought mediators help determine what's fair and that they only facilitate conversations. I sent him a link with info on collaborative divorce process.

At the end of the email I said "I am utterly heartbroken, I would have done anything to save our marriage". I haven't been emotive at all in several months, so I thought it was ok to do this.

He replied back: "I am also utterly heartbroken".


I feel like this is a typical MLC response because it always has to be about him.

I have spent a lot of time on self reflection, but I have taken it way too far to the point of incessant self flagellation.

He seems utterly done, but because he has been so cruel these past few months, I might be too.


DB August 6, 2017 after 3 month separation
Me: 54
H: 58
Two Teenage sons
Living Separately from H
Married 19 years, together 22 years
Not sure if this is an MLC or WAS