Today i really feel myself down. Again the urge to call her and tell her how much I love her.
Well if you want to make things worse then go right ahead.
I did say this would happen yesterday.
You are NOT unique. So if you want to start to turn things around you need to listen to people who have been down this path before and get your head back into the game.
Your W is gone.
You need to make peace with that fact. Its harsh but its true. You lived before her... and you will live after her. That relationship is not your life - it was a part of your life.
So now you have more time for yourself - first job is to stop spinning.
Order this book - codependant no more - Melanie Beattie.
You either get a grip or you are going to make things worse. You can and will do this but you need to take a deep breath and get your sh*t in order.
