Any advice 5

[gw5263]

Well, new year same situation. There’s been no movement forward or backward. Seems to be stuck in limbo. She still talks to him but there’s been no mention of divorce and no move out of the house. He still 1000 miles away wreck in my life. I really don’t see any end in sight for this affair. Seems like they can go on forever like the energizer bunny just over the phone. I know it’s emotional in Winfield on emotions, but how many times can you say I love you over the phone with no interaction before starts to get stale. Just a thought. I don’t mention is the relationship, divorce , or him anymore. I go day to days doing my things and fixing all the financial issues this affair has caused. Still not had a drop to drink since June /7, which is a huge 180 for me. I feel like I’m detaching more each day, and I try to be the best dad I can for my kids. My wife has my daughter on her side , telling my W when I’m going out and when I’m on the phone. I admittedly still have a taste for revenge , to put it pure and simple. I know it was her choice but a part of me wants to make him suffer the same pin I have. I won’t because I’m a better person than that. But I still hate him with everything I am. The last time we did talk, my wife did say that she thought that the way I felt about her and the things I was doing to change was vindictive. I asked her what do you mean, and she said that she thought some of it was fake. Designed to make her leave him and come back to me so that I could then dump her and hurt her and called her the pain she caused me. I told her nothing could be farther from the truth, the way I feel about her is genuine, it would be hard to fake that for eight months now. She said it just scared her that I felt this white now and didn’t seem to earlier.I’m trying to keep the peace and rebuild my relationship with my daughter and improve myself for moones benefit other than mine and the kids. If she takes notice so be it. She has been much more pleasant towards me, laughing and wanting to interact. Perhaps time will show her that I am genuine. I read some where that long distance emotional affairs tend to fizzle out after 15 months. If that’s the case I have 4 months left to wait.... a pipe dream I know. But keep hope alive.....