Act Now or Cry Later

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Thanks KYH, Ownit and KML. I appreciate all the support.

Yes Ownit, I too noticed anytime he does something nice something nasty follows. Years ago he would do something nice right before he went out all night long. And last weekend he was being nice and yesterday he offered a lot of help. Guess it was his way of making himself feel better about what he was about to do.

And I know now that yes, something (probably someone) has moved him into not wanting to listen to the depressing music anymore. He was super cheerful yesterday. And today he is humming around the house when he is not in the stinky room. Clearly he is onto greener pastures.

We discussed the last few years and he doesn't remember much though he thinks he does. He downplayed the letter and denied saying much of what he did say. He said he went out all hours of the night because we were "broken up." He says he's been perfectly normal these last few years and feels really happy. He says he's only not happy because of me/when I am around.

He is very, very off. He just walked into the kitchen and said that a certain water bottle was really nice. S14 said to him, "yeah, it's yours." H said "it is?" And s14 said: "yeah, it was my Christmas present to you." H seriously does not remember receiving his one and only gift from s14.

And even weirder the other day h could not get the right answer to a simple math problem. I told him the right answer and he said no. He went into the stinky room and came out several minutes later sticking to the same answer. I took a calculator and did the very simple math. He said it still did not make sense?!? He's been lost a long while. The way he is acting reminds me a lot of his fuzziness in the early days post BD when he would get lost all he time and not remember anything.

Anyway, KML, Ownit and Job, thank you for reassuring me that this may be best. He's depressed and has no idea. Actually for myself I am ready. I know he has lost the plot and I think there will be greater peace without him here. But I am worried about the financial part of the d as he's quite sneaky these days. And most importantly, I just hope my kids survive and thrive through this. I think s14 may not be too surprised. S12 I think is going to take this very, very hard.