Thanks for the responses guys. I'm keeping the DR book off site, and I only browse this in incognito mode. So I'm not terribly worried about being discovered.
I'm having pleasant interactions with the wife here and there, will continue to GAL to try to stop initiating touch and waiting for her to.
It is incredibly hard with to keep an inner struggle like this from someone who has been your best friend.
Me, H-39, W-33 T11, M3 No children Bomb 10/17 - "Not sure what she wants" Bomb 2 12/17 - forced convo it did not go well. W moved out 3/18 OM Confirmed 4/1 D Final 9/27/18