Adjusting to being a LBS #2

[Subitai]

I will be friendly. I am guessing no saying ILY... but what if she says it first? Can I say it back?

I am starting Meditation and Yoga at the gym, and I am starting training for an endurance cycling event.

As for the IC trauma, when I was a teenager I was prescribed an anti depressant that caused a suicide attempt, 2 weeks in ICU, and several months of involuntary commitment. I hated the psych who did that to me and did not trust therapy at all after that. That is part of why MC failed three times before. Going to IC after the BD caused full blown panic attacks, as have a few other things that reminded me of the incident after the original panic attakc about IC. That happened in front of my wife anf MC the week after BD before my first IC session. I almost could not go to the IC or even to the MC alone to talk to her about the IC to get enough gumption up to see the IC. Both IC and MC have said this is PTSD from teenage years. I have soooooo much on my emotional plate right now.

I am finally ok at IC, and look forward to it. I want to change these problems.