I just got D back tonight. I haven't seen her in two weeks. I was supposed to have her back Wednesday, but they closed school Thursday and Friday because it was going to be "too cold" (in the 20s. Gotta love the south). I asked XW if she wanted to keep D the extra two days, since she'd have had her this weekend anyway. She said yes.
And... today, three hours before I am supposed to get D, I get this text out of the blue:
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EastTN, I have to let you know something. I know your have your thoughts and ways and that you don't think I'm a good mom for "tearing" the family apart or whatever it is that you have against me. But there's one thing I've done right and knew I would always do for D since I got pregnant and that's always making sure she will be happy!
Yes I am stern with her, which I don't have to be much anymore since I taught her since she could understand. But she's happy and she will only ever have 1 mom and 1 dad. With that said, I have to show you this smile that she's had since Christmas. She's been upset a few times because she hasn't got her way but I just tell her she has to learn that she won't always get what she wants and definitely not when she whines about it. You know how she is...
I just want you to know that I made the right decisions these past few months and definitely did this time almost a year ago. There was some things that I took your word on and didn't understand fully (like the custody stuff being the main thing) but after that's settled which I hope you will see that half and half time is what's best for us all especially D. Here's is the picture that I think you will appreciate.
It's a picture of OM holding D.
I was f***ing shattered by that. She thinks I'll appreciate that? What the hell? What the hell is wrong with her? "She made the right decisions." Having an affair. Using me. Lying to me. Screwing with my head. False reconciliation. That was the "right" thing to do.
I'm so angry. I'm so hurt. I'm HAPPY that this "person" isn't my wife anymore, I'm pretty much happy with my life except for the time I don't get to see D, and the time I don't get to see GF because we're still taking things slow bringing her into D's life, but god that crap HURTS.
What the **** is wrong with her? What the hell did I do to deserve this [censored]? I wasn't the best husband in the world. Passive. Lazy. Not very attractive. But for the love of god, does that rate this kind of punishment?
I also admit I'm jealous. XW got her payout from my 401k last week. My retirement is being used for gastric bypass. She's living the life she wants without giving a damn about anything. She lives with OM. OM is fully integrated into D's life.
Meanwhile, I've got $10k of legal bills, I'm exhausted from worrying about being the perfect single parent, I don't get to see GF nearly as much as I want, and any "overnights" with D in the house are MONTHS in the future because I refuse to put my own wants before what I think are D's needs, and I'm still worried that XW is going to somehow take D away, and then move to Florida, and that makes me sad beyond belief everytime I think about it.
