Thank you Job. Your support means the world to me. Truly.

I am okay, really. He is not well. He has not been well in years. He told me nothing is wrong with him. That he just can't come out of that room because of me? I asked why and he said it's too uncomfortable. I said I feel perfectly comfortable. I think it's his conscience eating at him.

I am just focused on finances and my kids at this point. He thinks it's normal to tell them by himself. And I know what he wants to say to them: "hey, this is all okay. Let's do this without upsetting mom." He hates emotion so he'll force them to "man up." But in the end it's he who is the coward.

He told me this is best for me and he hopes I already have 1 or even 4 or 5 boyfriends I see. Guess I know what he's thinking about.

As for the money, he is sneaky. I know he is. And I bet he has money hidden.


Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13
BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself
BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room"
8/15: H back to MBR
10/15: H back in dorm room
1/18: H files, now divorced