Well my vacation and time with the girls is winding down to an end. Been off for two weeks and have had my girls since last Saturday. We went to church this morning and choir for the girls starts back up tonight so I will drop them off at the W's place tonight after choir.
I felt really strong this morning at church with the girls, confident in the love, structure and support I am providing them. The serman today was about being strong in our convinction to god and always walking with him vs picking and choosing what parts of his word we choose to follow. It hit home as I started to think about being strong in my conviction to stand for my MR, to be strong when someone is being weak. It just made me feel really good about the actions I am taking.
Currently the normal Sunday routine is in full effect with me doing their laundry and gathering up their things to take with them for the week. The W texted me this am, said she was sick and told me I could drop them off whenever I wanted. She also told me she would Square Cash me some money to pay for their lunch. I told her I would drop them off after choir, she didn't realize it started back up tonight, and said it was perfect. I almost offered to keep them for the night since she was sick but decided not to.
I do feel like my W's respect is returning or has returned to some degree. I don't feel compelled to do anything different than what I am currently doing but I don't sense any resentment. Maybe it is still in their but because I have not been pressuring her she has no reason to show it. She offered to give me money today, has not been asking me for more money since I told her I couldn't give her any more, is generally pleasant to deal with, isn't emotionally manipulating me, isn't arguing with me or trying to bait me into R talks, if there is OM not rubbing it in my face or flaunting it on SM, etc.
I am pretty convinced this is more about her than me and I think if she chooses to come back a lot of the decision will be based on whether or not she can handle the pressure of being a full time parent, wife and all the responsibilities that go with it.
