To be honest, want i want the most right now is to find a new form of stability in my life. One that does NOT depend on my wife, h@ll not anyone but on ME alone. I want to become my own man, independent and strong, that is my goal and perhaps i am starting to see the upside in all of this. Without her MLC life would probably have continued to unfold in much the same manner as before which would never have prompted me to attempt change and strive for self-improvement!

As for the D, i think we will go back to our pre-marriage financal arrangement where everyone has their own goods and that's that so only the house is split even between us. Means even if we opt for D later it shouldn't be AS big a deal (at least financially) This takes pressure off her, she even confirmed it herself and i am fine with that too.

Then i guess we will keep living here for a while and be in "Limbo" for now. Time will tell what comes next.

You are right though, i need to be patient, i caught myself being almost TOO eager now to move things forward and was even somewhat "ok" with the idea of being on my own now but i suppose that might as well have been a facade i drew for myself so i could survive/stand the thought of being alone comfortably, not sure.


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