Also: Thanks for the advice job, i really need to be careful not to let myself get swept up in her whirlwind of decisionmaking right now.
Is it normal for MLCers to completely change stances within HOURS? I mean... this morning we were fighting like hell (i know i shouldn't give in to it but i was stuck with her in the car on the ride home and she kept provoking me duh) with back and forth allegations but then tonight she calmed down, even gave me that look (puppy eyes that are asking "what are we doing here? This isn't what i want) and then later she flat out came to me and said she hasn't felt this optimistic about OUR future in a long time, and that these divorce discussions have somehow lifted a great pressure of her. Not sure in what sense exactly?
Either way, i stayed calm and cautiously optimistic, i am not falling for it though this time, but let me tell you it's hard as hell to resist getting your hopes up again.
Before we talked i had the usual "hole in the stomach" because i was thinking about the whole situation and felt down, now just like magic i feel reassured and better.
My body is playing tricks on me and i need to master these emotions or i will never be whole again.
As for her coming forward to me like that, should i encourage behaviors like these or is it better to keep ignoring her even in those times?
