So after a very stressful situation that involved a WW getting extremely emotional and A LOT MORE that I don't want to mention...
She sat down and wanted to talk. OK. I decided I could control the conversation at that point. I did really well. Conversation wasn't more than 5, maybe 8 minutes because of my boundaries.
She started out by lamenting that I would not talk to her during my NC but "now I'll ever know" what she wanted to talk about. OK, that's a BS guilt trip trap. Done talking about that. Next.
She thinks I am delaying the D, because I pled not guilty. No logic there, because we are still in the divorce cooldown. Also, the next round of paperwork hasn't even been done by her lawyer yet. I spent 1 or 2 minutes explaining the process and dropped it. She's just mad because she wants it to be instant. Done talking about that. Next.
She said very clearly that she wants out and does not love me. I said I know that, nothing else to say about that. Next.
She said I was mad because she wants to be with someone else. I assured her IDGAF who she is with. Point blank. I DON'T CARE. So then she tells me I might not want to sleep in the MBR bed (hint hint). I said I don't care, and tucked myself into the sheets (I washed them yesterday). She said that's not the only place. And I replied again, I don't care. That's when she got up and stormed off.
Then she got on the phone with OM, laughing and talking sweet. It's pretty insulting. She was being very loud to the point the kids can hear, even though the point of it was to get me to listen.
A WW has no boundaries at all.
I think today I really did drop the damn rope. I really don't care. I didn't want a divorce but now? I think it is a good idea.
But it does stink and the kids had to hear her going crazy. But my heart isn't hurt or stinging from what she's said.
I'm done, everyone. It's been really good getting the support and help from all of you. You have helped me more than you'll ever know.
But right now, this ultimate disrespect she is showing me and our family is just disgusting and spiteful. I can't have my kid around this mess. I've got to go.
I did absolutely no pursuit behavior today. I think she interpreted her conversation with her attorney as me pursuing. Anyways. After today, my decision is to sign the D and be done.
I'm sure I'll be back here to get more solutions as this progresses, but I've made up my mind to get this done as quick as I can.
Save yourself. Nobody is coming! BD:11/2017 Filed:12/2017 Final: 2/2018
