What should I be doing now? (It's done)

[Coconut]

Not sure if it's the pending D (6 days away) or the snooping, but I've definitely been in a funk these past few days. Sent her a text message, I know it doesn't accomplish anything, but sometimes I can't help it.. at the beginning of the text, I quoted some of the messages between her and OM I found way back when (which is how I found out about the A). After quoting those messages, this is the text:


This, this is something a spouse should never have to see.. I have hoped for a year and a half to learn what I did to deserve to be completely (pooped) on, to have a real conversation with you... Never once did you reach out, never once did you apologize or show remorse for abandoning your family. Just went out partying every night, acting out like girls gone wild.

I did not get you pregnant, I did not make you miss your partying 20's, I chose you, I accepted Your son as my own and did my best to raise him. I chose to be with you at the cost of having kids of my own, wanting to grow old with you.. You put Your son above me, ignoring my concerns about it, but somehow expected me to feel loved and respected . I succumbed to wait until Our son went to college before I got my wife back.. Then she abandons us both.

YOU disappoint me.