Happy New year my friends! Hi Sotto and Dawn!. I am definitely not emotionally involved or attached to any of this. Actually, I am rapidly losing interest. It's a very weird situation. Supposedly he left yesterday for Brazil for business. Which can be believed. he's sent pictures that indicate he is real. Say everything was absolutely real, his situation certainly isn't ideal. I told him to let me know when he gets back and that really would like to meet to see if we click in person. If it doesn't happen, I'll know something is up.
As far as the rest of the online dating? Well, I got a very serious request to participate in a gang bang. I politely turned it down. Some others don't seem awful, but certainly lack conversation skills. Yeah, I don't think I am going to be successful with this. I know I do better just meeting people.
MY goals right now is to seriously revisit this whole GAL thing. It's been really difficult because my GAL revolves around physical activity. It's been very difficult on me. I need something social in my life, group related, so I am looking into more volunteering, maybe a book club, just something. I really don't know where exactly I am going with this. I wish like heck that I was physically capabale of what I was a year ago. It's been really rough. The recovery is slow, sometimes painful, and very limiting. But I know I need something social in my life.
Work, that is just getting worse. Still praying for a miracle. The plus side is I have earned an extra week of vacation this year.
Something happened NYE that pissed me off, but I can't talk about it here, but it made me realize that I can say no to things, and I can put my wants and needs first every now and then. I need to stop worrying about making everyone else happy and maybe focusing on my needs a little. I also had been making a huge effort in not dwelling in the pain. I hadn't cried in a while, but on NYE I let out an ugly cry. It was cleansing.
I sort of feel like I am back to square one in my life and I am sorta lost. I just need to channel some patience here. Some answer will come in time.
And, oh my god dawn, I love your ansers to the single question. I think I need to steal them the next time I am asked. And I will surely be asked again.
For now, A snow day because there is a snowbomb here. We took our computers home just in case, but since the place [censored] now, we weren't allowed to work from home. So I am forced to take a day off. Oh well, I'll finally get this Christmas crap back in storage.
