New LBS dealing with WW Part 3

[Joe2017]

EVERY ONE OF YOU IS RIGHT.

I'm all over the place emotionally. But I decided to do it here instead of at home. In front of WW I have to be cool and calm. I can't flip flop there. I can do it here and thank God for you all who can slap me back into reality.

Do I want recon? Man I wish it was that easy. Don't we all? I know I wasn't perfect in our marriage, and I did contribute to her resentment. And vice versa! Probably even more!

Yes I want the pain to end. I couldn't get the image of her out living the GGW single life out of my mind. I know I have to give up on the M. It's over. Obviously. What we had will never come back. There is only the future.

Throwing her stuff out of the MBR is honestly me wanting to show more dominance and more evidence that I'm dumping her. If I could toss her out of the house I would. "Go live your life and stop dragging me down."

I am tired. I'm sleepy. I'm exhausted. I'm at the end of my rope. I no longer care what she says to me anymore. Her lies and insults don't bother me anymore. I outright expect her to be nuts now. I have no connection to this new "wife". I'm holding onto what she once WAS, not what she is NOW.

This is tough. Thanks for everyone's help. Really.