Joe,

You have been at this for less then a month. This is probably the hardest thing you will ever do in your life. This is a marathon not a sprint.

Yes, the odds are against a recon right now but not impossible.If you recon it is likely it is a long ways away.

If you put in the hard work you will be fine either way.

Only you know if you are done.

I promise you it does get easier and you will survive this and possibly be better off.