New LBS dealing with WW Part 3

[Joe2017]

After an entire night of tossing and turning, I've begun to seriously let go of the idea of recon. I haven't had any real sleep and reading post after post I realized that the majority of LBS do not get a chance at R.

She's out wearing skimpy clothes that she would never wear for me when we were married, and yet I think I want her back? What's my freaking malfunction!?!!?

I see no reason to continue my suffering any longer. It's too late... she has OM, and I have nothing but a mess on my hands. Time to cut my losses and move on.

Maybe this is part of the DB process, I don't know. I love GAL and 180s but just because of how it makes me feel about myself. So I will continue GAL but I know she doesn't give a crap about me anymore, and she doesn't give a crap about my kid (or hers) anymore.

So I shouldn't care about her anymore either. Sad but true. I have my own interests to protect. I can't keep doing this, it is too painful and it will only leave me broken.

I am seriously entertaining the thought of taking all of her things out of the MBR and putting a lock on the MBR door that only I have a key to. I can't kick her out of the house but I can kick her out of a room. Will it be traumatic for the kids? Yeah. Will she blame me? Yeah. Do I care? No, not really.

I'm closer to being done with this than I ever have been before.