Frankly this is some of the most awful behaviour of any wayward I have read on this board, and there has been some terrible things.

Most of it is truly nasty and unpleasant, and I have been on the receiving end of a great deal. I was beginning to doubt that this was real although some of it particularly the raging, gaslighting, cheating and entitlement is stuff I recognise too well.

The other aspect here of seeing you as a target (not a victim) is that you are denying it and blaming Yourself

It is called denial.

She is wayward there is no doubt and there is a long history. You are saying she has mental issues, not on Meds, uses alcohol and sends you these terrible emails.

Do not delete these emails etc, if you seek primary custody of your children then you will need them.

Going NC is the minimum to do, additionally I would like to hear you are getting help IRL, from abuse counselling and perhaps a battered mens group. Putting your sexual health at risk in this way is physical abuse. Please get tested and ensure you have a syphilis test. Some of her behaviour could be syphilis infection too. From there you may need to determine if your children should be tested, I do hope not.

Sweetness is as Sweetness does and this is rancid stuff.

Not only that but her rage has extended beyond your private circle to public media, this is truly truly abusive stuff.

Consider getting a no contact order and please stay safe. Keep those buttons out of reach.

At some stage after this level of provocation you too may get angry and that can be directed.

And for the record at 63 I now expect to have to work until I am in my mid 70s.

I fear for you with this outrageous stuff. And even more for your sweet girls who need you more than ever.

V

Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose.
V 64, WAW