Update for today:

She texted me I can come and play with tge kids. I came home, she made nice dinner and was generally much nicer than on NYs eve. I was calm, but helped her with the table and now I am playing with kids.
On one hand it makes me feel much better, being around at home with kids on the other, it is kindda contrary to 180.
I really need an advice here.

Thanks,

Mav.