I went to a house party at some friends which really put a lot of things in perspective to me. One woman was there alone because her husband got drunk at 9:00 am. He just lost his job and there marriage is in shambles. The woman who hosted the party got mad at her husband and lock herself in the bedroom and would not come out. At ball drop not one of the 5 couples there kissed or hugged or anything.
I guess what my point is I am starting to realize that I have hope. I have learned so much in the last three years that I feel I will know how to make a relationship last. These people do not and they don't have nor seek the knowledge to make their marriages better.
As for my W she asked if she could stay until she finds a house because she doesn't want to pay rent and move the kids twice. I told her I would think about it. I also said since you may be here awhile as long as you are not seeing anyone I would like to start having sex again. She said she wasn't so we did lol! It was good with no attachment.
I am ready to let her go and we'll set what the future holds. I know for sure I am blessed with a lot of great things in my life and things could be so much worse.
I texted my Ws cousin who is going through a difficult time that 2018 is our year. I really believe it. It was January 1, 2017 when W said she wants to go through with D and I am in such a way better place in one year.
