waw maybe #2

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Updating:

Went to a NYE party last night by myself and it was great, a lot of laughs and of course several drinks. Not once did I think about my sitch and I didn't feel like I wanted my W there.

I sometimes think I do not see a path to R as the days go on but then I am reminded that in the beginning she wanted nothing to do with me. Now she will have conversations with me that do not seemed strained. I am reluctant to ever bring up any talk about future things and she has completely softend. I did however make a mistake last night but oh well, I woke her up when I got home and wished her a happy new year. She did say it back but then when I woke in the afternoon she did say "Did you have to wake me up"?

I am starting training for a half marathon scheduled for may. I already have a good base of about 22 miles a week. I am going to start to increase my mileage and change diet.

So my D23 has taken an interest in chess and for the past week I leave the chess board on the dining room table with a puzzle to solve. She absolutely loves this and wants me to teach her. I tried when she was younger but she had no interest. In return for me teaching her she will show me how to play guitar. My goal is within 1 year to be able to play "Record Year" by Eric Church. This song is my rallying song.

Just to give a little more background on me I do have a degree in psychology and throught my college days I wonder why we never went over this type of behavior in abnormal psych.