I understand your shock at the Christmas card thing. I was the same this year...wasn't expecting diddly, then opened £200 worth of gifts from my favourite shops. Just after i'd been told via text that he didn't want to have a talk alone with me. On our 25th Anniversary, I wasn't worth a face to face.
Tbh, the gifts meant little to me. I think at this stage I've gone numb...it's not a conscious thing, It just feels as if a cloud like force field has surrounded me.
I'm not a believer so I can't make a comment on that, but I do understand how hard it is to let go. The frustration on 'why me'. And oh my I've wondered myself...why on earth would I want this man back in my life? It's a process, every step gets worked through and I do believe it's made easier with GAL...I'm just rubbish at that part! But you sound like you've got this! You sound strong and composed and surrounded by love and distraction.
Best wishes for 2018.
Me 50 H 48 S 23 S 21 D 19 Together 31 years Married 25 years Separated April 2009 Reconciled 2010 Separated September 2017
