Chris, it has been ten years! You are not part of her life right now, so stop trying to be. Stop trying to find an excuse to contact this woman and let it go. You post every line she texts you. I get the idea you are hoping we'll finally find one that deserves a reply.
Block her phone. Until you do, she has you by the b@lls, and she knows it, we know it, everyone knows it but you (and possibly Gordie... ) Stop deceiving yourself.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
) Stop deceiving yourself.