You are amazing. Your candour is so refreshing and so very welcome, and so very much needed.
It's made me feel so much better. I've been chewing over your post in my head the last few days and whenever negativity creeps in, whispering that my marriage is never going to be restored because of my black heart and hate, I will now shrug it off because I know at least one other person felt shades of what I felt and is in the place I want to be in. If my marriage is never restored, I won't be blaming myself for it. You've helped me so much.