Well things here are ok, not great but ok. I have not heard from H and have only attempted to reach him once about an urgent piece of mail received yesterday. He didn't answer and I did not leave a message or try again.
I have been beating myself up a little bit the last few days. Thing a lot and quite a bit of tears, I have said before our M wasn't perfect and honestly it was not but there was love once upon a time.
I have been remembering all my past mistakes and hurtful words. His too but mostly mine. And it got me thinking, there really is a possibility that he is happy with this OW. His life, despite the recent health issues and work probs, may actually be working out.
He is happy and has no desire to have any type of relationship with me at all. I have turned into the woman who just can't take the hint. A desperate mess.
I really think I put him in the MLC box because I could not admit to myself or anyone else that he was just truly unhappy and no longer cared for me. So I guess just saying he had some "issue" going on made me feel better. Gave me hope.
He doesn't act like a MLCer...he just acts like someone who truly doesn't want to be bothered by another person (me) any more.
I thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. I wish you all the best in your relationships and hope that you each find happiness in 2018.
