Joe I agree with rex here.....your choice, this is not a we discussion. I can guarantee you if you have this discussion you won't like the outcome. If you want a D then go file, if you don't then you are going to have to show more patience than you ever have before.
My W has told me 3 times in 7 months she wanted a D and has still not filed. Every time she says it or attempts to take a step in the opposite direction it impacts me less and less. Over time the roller coaster should get smoother.
Hang in there and don't let your emotions control you.