Thanks V. This smells quite like a Cuban cigar store, with vanilla and honey.
I've seen a few people mentioning that they don't know how they would take it if there was an OM in the picture. It initially was a shock but the biggest thing for me currently is a) losing over half of the lives of my kids and b) me struggling to find my path despite of trying quite a bit of new things. I can pretty confidently say that I'm not depressed anymore and I find joy in regular things, so - I keep continuing the "kaizen" (the term; not the user ) -way. I don't know about my future and that's the first thing I learned - you can never properly plan it. We need to just keep working hard and eventually the pieces fall down on their own places. Pick a path and stick with it but don't fear to experiment.
Previously I was always feeling bad or being sorry if I couldn't help my XW with something. Now I'm not. If I can't, I can't. It doesn't bother me at all. Just realized this yesterday. A friend from work asked me what would I do if the grass doesn't seem to be greener on the other side - I didn't have answers except for I would be really sad for her if that happened. People who know my situation, all say she probably was having an affair before she told me. I don't know, maybe. Now, I do know her wanting me back is not going to happen ever, but regardless of how nice one tries to be, getting that "ego boost" would still probably give me a nice smile.
I keep visiting less and less... Well I don't have anything to share.
In my thirties, BDd 2017, divorced 2 young kids new relationship
