I am not going to lie to myself. I am scared. I still love my W and I am trying to table those feelings as to not cloud what I need to do. Even after 9 months I am feeling the struggle to let go. I need to work on that and I will work on that.
Pew,
I was scared when I told my wife it was time for her to leave. I was afraid of the impact it would have on my sons and I was afraid of all of the future unknowns. Taking action actually allowed me to step-up my game and move forward with confidence. Prior to telling my wife to leave, she was in the driver's seat. After asking her to leave, I did most of the driving and everything turned out very well. My fears didn't have any foundation, but it was hard to throttle the imaginary scenarios of what the future may hold.
There's a good quote, but I don't know who to attribute it to, "fear is the mind killer." When you're gripped by fear, it's hard to make good decisions. Live in the moment (GAL) and don't ruminate all of the potential futures. Do what you need to do in the present and let the future take care of itself.
