still struggling

[Jim1234]

So Christmas came and went. I missed my kids, but that's the new reality, I guess. Drove to my hometown. Had a pretty good time with my parents, and one brother's family, and saw another brother's family later Xmas night. Went flying with him the next morning, and saw the first brother for dinner last night. Got home a few hours ago.

My kids and I decided to have our Christmas on Christmas eve, so we woke up in the morning, had cinnabons, opened presents, enjoyed each other, went to church, and a Christmas party in the evening. I left around 9 pm and drove 3 hrs to my parent's house.

Talked to S17 on Christmas afternoon. Nice chat. I asked to talk to D16 at the same time my mom asked me to talk to s17. I handed the phone to her, as apparently, W accepted the phone from s17. Mom and W had a nice chat (they get along very well), and after W passed the phone to D16, she and my mom chatted. I got my phone back and talked to D for a bit, and hung up. For Christmas, it was just the three of them, all day.

I'm glad I got through it. I was tearing up a bit in church, and missed them when I was away. I'm glad I missed her on the phone, though. I just didn't really want to talk to her, and hope, just maybe, she's realizing what she's throwing away, but I'm not optimistic.