Wife wont admit to affair and its driving me nuts!

[Morbo]

Thank you Sandi. This forum has been great. I wish I could have been here earlier but I doubt if it would have changed the outcome of anything.

Also, I have been reading on detachment and have been reading your threads on LBH with Wayward wife and they are so real to me. Its incredible the similarities to my situation. Your reflections at the end, I must read 10 times!

The last 3 weeks have been hard as I have finally come out of denial about my W's more than likely affair.
My anger is subsiding too as is the need to absolutely have 100% proof. I'm at the point where I dont care and OM can have her.
I have been looking back too and I see all my W's flaws and how she drove me away from people. Her depression and negativity were bad for me and kids and I took on all her anger and resentment.I was the punching bag. It made me not really love her or want to be around her. I also dont think much of her new friends and I'm a good judge of character..
We drank way too much together too, towards the end it was like 2-3 bottles of vodka a week. That never ended well.
She is such an unhappy person and doesnt like herself much at all I see although I always tried to encourage her. Only so much I could do.
She has a long road ahead...


Yeah, she was cold today when I met her to collect kids this morning. Seems to be back to normal, hating and trying to guilt me. I dont care though. I'm just thinking of my kids and all the plans in my head I'm making. Did huge amounts of practice today, exercised, getting ready to record a new album and getting tour dates to play Ireland and UK in the summer and bring my girls with me. Its exciting, I havent really been thinking about ME for a while.