I agree w/LH19...your wife knows that she still has you on the hook and she thinks that if she finds the magical words, you'll jump over fire to be w/her. She needs to see that you aren't playing around here and are moving forward. She needs to realize that you aren't going to change your mind about open marriage and I would end that discuss each and every time she brings it up. She's in la la land and the sooner she faces the consequences of her actions, the better. She may even panic a bit more than she has and try to convince you that she wants back into the marriage and will do better...but please, do not be fooled. She's got a lot of hard work to do before she'll be 100% back into the relationship w/you.
I'm glad you "screamed"...you need to vent that anger somewhere.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
