Christmas went well, we were responsible for dessert and of course we brought way too much. We were at inlaws and no one suspects there is anything wrong and wife acted pleasant towards me through out. We took two cars as would would not fit in one and when I decided I was leaving all the kids came home with me. I did not ask them to come but they wanted to.
W and I exchanged gifts and she really like what I got her and it was the first year in a long time my D's didnt help me pick something out. It was nice to see my W happy while the kids opened their gifts and I felt like a family again for the first time in a while.
I cannot help but feeling like the path to R maybe be eroding as the days go on. The feeling of being with someone for 26 years and not being able to have physical touch is perhaps the most difficult thing to deal with, early on I was questioning myself as to was I good enough. I now realize this is not about me, my W will have some real issues to deal with in the near future.
I am getting ready to go to the gym and tonight going out to dinner with S21 and D18 with my parents.
BTW, my entire inlaw family absolutely loves having me and I often get invites to their houses for parties, even if my W is working.
M:52 W:49 D:26 S:24 S:23 D:20 ILYBNILWY 5/28/17 Still living together W filed 1/5/18 W moved out 8/24/18 D final 9/18/20
