Wrapping up the last hour of my week with the girls. Christmas morning was awesome, they got up around 6 am and for the next 2 hours it was on! They got a lot of oll gifts, helped them open all of them, getting them out of the packages, setting up, etc. They got a couple of really funny game, 1 called Doggie Doo Doo and the other some toilet seat game that squirts water in your face. My oldest got Nitendo Switch so she has been no stop playing it.
After I got all the Christmas stuffed picked up and squared away for them we started in on brunch! So I poured myself a mimosa and stated in. Made cinnamon rolls, eggs, bacon and biscuits.
The W will be here in 1 hour and I am off the clock for the next week. We did get her a present from the girls so hopefully she will like.
All in all my spirits have been really high. I was a little sad last night at the candlelight service at church. As far as I could tell I was the only father their with 2 daughters. It made me proud and sad at the same time. As fas my W is concerned it is hard to explain but she was in no rush to see the girls or was in any hurry to get them today. It sort of feels like she is in prison or a rehab facility. She doesn't want to be around but wants me to send her pictures and videos. Then comments on how good the tree looked etc. like she can't be here but wants to feel connected.
I don't know if she wanted me to extend her an invite and tell her she needs to be at the house or that I want her here but I couldn't get myself to do it. I sent her a video this am when the girls got up of them walking into the living room at 6 am and she responded in 3 minutes. My W is not a morning person so I wonder if she was hoping I asked her to come up to the house? I know I am mind reading but I already invited her once and she turned down xmas eve. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. She knew the invitation was there so she made the choice.
I am such a proud dad this morning I can't even put it into words. Christmas was normally my wifes domain with the the buying and wrapping of the presents but I am proud of myself on my performance! My girls are incredible and I never once saw them sad, upset and they never asked any questions about where their mom was at.
I am trying hard not to judge or inpose my feelings on to her but I am really trying to be detached from the situation and let her behave how she wants. However I will say that I have lost some respect for her through this process. My kids have not said anything but I do wonder at times what is going through their head!
I hope everyone can find some peace on this day and for those of you just starting on the journey I can tell you it does get better!
