Thanks for all of your kind words. I'll try to keep repeating them to myself. I'm trying to be as normal as possible today. I won't contact my husband again. I learned my lesson. I'll look into antidepressants again as soon as I see a doctor about the actual medical problems. If I don't need surgery and if there's not a second diagnosis then I'll probably be ok. If it's something bad though then I'll need antidepressants and a lot of help which I don't have so I'll have to beg friends to fly here from other places.
I hope you're doing ok today. There in the UK it's already afternoon so at least you made it almost through Christmas day! When is your actual anniversary day? I guess I should go to your thread to write more about you! I'll try to be back later to write more.
