Joe Hard as it seems to hear today on Xmassive day, you will recover and this part is the worst.
And it is absolutely completely and totally expected. Especially at Xmas, the loss will be sharper. That is the awful truth, and sometimes it might get worse. But it's ok, from being where you are to where I am now, it's a long way.
I think the G had 9 OW in total, and it hurts a lot to know that he played away. That doesn't make you any less although it feels like it sometimes.
So in my case what I felt in my mind was true. And so so hurtful too. It's ok it drives you insane, it really is OK. I would be worried for you if it didn't! Why? Because hard as it is to see it that way, it's much more damaging to deny.
Your mind will eventually get tired of it, and you will just write it up in your story.
And it hurts a lot. That's perfectly ok. It's suppose to......
I am sad you are at this point at Xmas but glad you are here.
Big hugs
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW