If it's any consolation I spent the whole day crying. I'm so sorry to hear your husband couldn't just meet you. It sounds like he knows he's guilty and doesn't want to face you. That's so hard though to spend the day before Christmas, and Christmas, without the man that you've spend more than half of your life with. It's kind of strange that he bought you all those nice gifts when there's evidence he's with another woman. It sounds like he cares for you on some level. It's good that he also agreed to help with everything you asked him by text.
So what's next? Will you keep going the way things are now and leave your husband to do his own thing? Or will you file for divorce?
It's such a terrible feeling to feel lost and discarded. I can't imagine a worse feeling than that. I feel the exact same way with my husband. I cried so much today I lost my voice and my eyes are bright pink. Even at church I kept crying. I agree that it's draining to act upbeat when that's not how you feel inside. Sometimes it's impossible.
I noticed that your info at the bottom of your posts says you were separated from your husband in 2009. What happened back then? And how did the reconciliation happen?
I hope you make it through Christmas day and then maybe after the holidays life will seem a bit more normal. Take care. I wish there was a way to know you on facebook or in real life to be of more support!
