The silences are an abuse control tactic too. Pattern changes to make you think she has lost interest in your misery.

Sad to say, the moment you truly let go is the point at which you may see even more rage and bad behaviour. That's because the abuser has lost control of you and your resources. WW won't like it.

At this point it is you and your children that concern me most. I hope you have a wonderful Xmas and that the best present is that your fear is mitigated.

Incidentally you have the insightful and thrives Surfer posting to you. His threads will give you great insight to these dynamics. His journey has elements in my view of your own.

Peace, breathe, fear, anger are all part of this journey. They are normal and absolutely on cue.

V

Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose.
V 64, WAW