Please understand that my days go between euphoria, acceptance and hope for the future and days of deep regret/guilt(maybe unfounded). One day its "f**k her, I hate her and never want to see her again and another its missing her terribly".Some days I dont give a damn about OM and other days I'm consumed by anger. I am at the start of detaching which I'm finding hard but I know I have to do it. I am exercising , trying to GAL as best I can and I am going to talk to someone soon, I know that needs to happen. I've let it go too long.
I am looking forward to Christmas , I'm glad I have them Xmas Eve and day too.
M-45 W-32 D-10 D-8 Together 11 years Married 6 years Separated 6/2017 ILYBINILWY 11/2016 (also nov 2011) EA 11/16 PA Same time?? NC, detachment started 12/11/17 D aug 2019
