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W is being nice but nothing more, we are preparing for xmas and I believe its just a show for the family. She does want to exchange gifts which I find really odd being that she wants a D. I also gave her money for our childrens gifts, they all want money. This is the first year she contributed towards their gifts.

GAL I went to to "The Last Jedi" and it was kind of weird sitting there by myself but as the movie started I felt more at ease. No comments on the movie itself as I would not want to give away the plot.

I joined a running club, it is the biggest one in our area and it also does volunteer work for charities. You can also voluteer at races and then gain credit towards entrance fees for upcoming races.

So recent thoughts about after BD, W started to intiate arguements with me claiming things that were not true, such as me hiding her car keys. At the time I just denied it but she kept pushing the topic saying that I was doing it on purpose, I never touched her keys.

Another situation was when I was having a convo with D23 telling her that I never really spank her (non of my kids were hit) but W now claims that she protected kids from me. It was nice to here D23 say that was not true.

W started saying right after BD that she wishes I would start to act normal again, I was doing everything I could to act normal but she saw me as an insecure doormat. I was doing all the wrong things, housework, fixing things etc etc. She also said that I felt like a stranger to her. Maybe b/c she has a new love interest, IDK.

Some weird realations, a few months ago if I bought some food W would not touch it, now she will. If I make dinner she will eat it this is a change.

I really need help in dealing with this as the months go by I am having the feeling that I want to move on. This struggle is weird that any of us would want to stay with someone who really at this point wants nothing to do with us.