She came up to me again and told me that she wants to be with me and doesn’t want to lose me. I told her that I can not and will not be in an open relationship and that she needs to figure out what she wants to do. I said we both need to think about things. I then left to go food shopping. I am trying my hardest to keep my composure but I am really struggling at the moment.
All I know is Have made many mistakes in this journey but I am going to try to do what is needed and not what my heart is telling me to do. I can’t help but feel like a failure at this point. I can and will do better.
