So my W went to do a little Christmas shopping yesterday afternoon but I felt something was off with the whole thing. So I kept to myself and was just processIng all these feelings that came over me.
I got up this morning at 5:30 and made coffee and sat on the couch knowing in my mind full well that she met up with OM yesterday. My W gets up and sits on the couch and asks me what is wrong. So I proceed to tell her I was angry and upset about what happened yesterday. She then asks why because she met up with her girlfriend and I looked at her and calmly said don’t treat me like an idiot. I know what you did yesterday.
Then I got up and went back to bed. A few minutes later she came into the bedroom and said he is just a friend and i don’t want to lose you. I replied that seeing him is not going to keep me here. She then asked me do I want her to stop talking to him. So I said you are old enough to figure out what you need and want to do.
She then asked to snuggle with her and I said I can’t. I have a lot on my mind and I am trying to process it all. She then started crying. So I just layed there with my back to her and let her cry. I wasn’t going to cave anymore. When I didn’t respond to her tears she tried bringing up things up from the past apparently as reasoning for her affair.. I told her I own up to my shortcomings of what got us here but taking things into an affair was all her choice.
She tried to hold me but I got up and went out to my sons room because I heard him waking up. I was hopeful no to make it through the holidays before this talk but it just happened and like sandi2 and artista said, I can’t back away from having it. So we will see how the holidays go from here.
Meet Christmas to all. I hope we all find peace in the new year.
