Wife wont admit to affair and its driving me nuts!

[Morbo]

123go..lol

Well I went for a 10miler in the Florida heat and I feel way better. Not fully sure what I'll do about Xmas eve yet.

Anger has subsided, will probably keep it for the occasional sarcastic comment when W tells me BS about her xmas plans. Will keep out of earshot of my kids though.

Christmas is going to be awesome for them. All planned out.. They're so excited.
They much prefer being with me, which is kind of telling

Otherwise will keep completely NC. This is no problem for me, I dont want her to know anything about me. If I didnt have kids with her I would never want to see her again tbh.

I've realized that its triggers that set me off like the gifts she got me. Also, I had to go to Target to get gifts for my W and inlaws(from my kids) and that was kinda hard.

Also, are guilt gifts a thing? Also my wife would occasionally get me over for dinner at her place or breakfast somewhere . Would happen couple times a month.
It drove me crazy because I never where I stood and went home pissed off after a few hours. I always thought she might be warming up to me but it was always the same old story. Is this a way for the WAW to feel better about herself? Hmmmm

I am looking into getting counselling. New year and all coming up :-)