Trying as best I can with Last Resort Technique

[Cherry]

I think acceptance is a safer place mentally than hope. You can still root for your marriage but also accept that that may not happen.
You sound like you’re doing the right things, looking after yourself and being strong and stable is the best for you and your boys. Staying steady and level headed will definitely help your boys as your h is all over the board right now.

You are doing all the right things, this is a marathon, not a sprint. So be kind to you. Accept your emotions, and accept that some days are tougher than others. If things get tough, or you need to vent- see here as your safe place. There’s always someone around. Treat yourself, get a new haircut, manicure, clothes- anything that makes you feel good.