Trying as best I can with Last Resort Technique

[Morbo]

Yeah, good luck with that apology, sorry!
My experience with a serial lying cheating spouse is that they will never give you the heartfelt apology you deserve and in my particular case she just gets angrier and angrier with me for no good reason, go figure..

Acceptance is good, it all takes time though and one day you can be up and the next day completely overwhelmed. It does get easier.

I understand the devastation, the pain, the rejection you're going through. The hardest part I find is that she wont admit to the OM(he's just a friend, LMAO)when I have so much evidence. I started a thread on it last week..

The cheater will lie, deny, deny, emotionally manipulate you into thinking that you're a terrible person responsible for everything. Its really cruel what they do to us. You just cant believe that this is your soul mate, spouse doing this to you.
I refused to believe..
I was actually actively pursuing her up to 2 weeks ago and still in emotional turmoil when I realized what she was doing to me.
When more stuff came to light, a switch went off(pardon the pun) and I want nothing to do with her anymore besides necessary family stuff and the divorce.
Like your husband, my wife is utterly miserable but they made their choice...

BUT, on the positive side, I too have lost 30 lbs on the Divorce diet, have really connected more with my kids and lots of new awesome opportunities are coming up.
In the next couple of months, year or so you may even count all this as a blessing.

Keep your chin up, keep GAL'ing. Keep busy, buy nice things for yourself, do things that you could never do with him, expand your social circle. Look after yourself and your family.
Best of luck !