We continue to move forward. We are now talking daily by phone. My W seems to be happier and I notice her at times watching me I think I surprise her with the changes I have made and the life I live without her at home.
We had a lunch date and for the first time had a R talk. Things started to be more negative then was good for either of us. I looked at her and asked if she felt I was being honest to her she got emotional and said I don’t know.
During our 25+ years of marriage we have over come some very hard and sad situations. I reminded her of this and then proceeded to tell her that I know that with out a doubt we could have a life without each other. I continue by letting her know my choice to stand and fight for our marriage was my choice. It is not a matter of winning or showing you I’m right. I’m here with you because I want to be and it is your choice to be out of our home and I will support you where I can as long as we are honest to one another.
Fortunately we were able to change the subject and continued with our date. We talked about upcoming family activities and she even mentioned our spring vacation plans. We said our goodbyes well seated in the car I do not tell her ILY but usually let her know she is in my thoughts. She looked at me and said she thinks about me also. As she walked around the car I was opening her door for her instead of getting into the car she embraced me and there we stood for what seem to me for a long... time she backed up said thank you got in the car and drove away.
The last few days our conversations start by her says (Do you think, I would like too, This would be fun,). She is being so positive it scares me. We are going on 4 days in a row hanging out together and only once has it been my idea. I have GAL plans tonight hockey game with friends my W called asking if I wanted to meet up for a drink I let her know I had plans but thanked her for invite. She told me to have a good time drink a beer for her and that she would call me later. I know I should continue status quo but can’t help but ask....
